There was probably everything you’d imagine at the Cosmopolitan Blog Awards: champagne on arrival, pretty girls in pretty dresses, fancy cupcakes and of course, cosmopolitan cocktails.
Once I entered the room in the Oxo Tower, I didn’t know where to look. Remington joined and kindly groomed guests’ hair (I slightly regretted doing mine beforehand), Two Little Cats Bakery let you design your own cupcake and there were temporary tattoos (I indulged in a feather on the wrist before deciding that maybe a gold foil style wasn’t my thing) and nail art.
But I’m a cocktail lover, so my eyes zoomed to Pinky Vodka’s bar with variations of classic cocktails, and of course, the classic Cosmopolitan (seriously, I’d have been disappointed if they didn’t have it). One even tasted like white chocolate, but was completely transparent, with a delicate flower floating on top. Bar magic at its best.
As you may know already, I didn’t win or come highly commended in the Cosmopolitan Blog Awards. I wondered whether I should do a post on the evening when frankly, people will generally want to hear about the winners’ stories. But that’s the thing, I still wanted to acknowledge it. We see so many people, on Facebook, on Instagram, sharing the good times, but rarely the bad, or average, or slightly disappointing.
As most people say in these situations, I am extremely happy to have even been shortlisted. I was wittled down into a group of 7 for the category of Best Travel Blog, out of over 45,000 entries (across the board, that is. I have no idea how many were solely travel). That is something to be proud of.
But there is the other side. It sucks. And it is disappointing. It knocks you down when you’ve had hope built up in you for months that maybe possibly there’s a chance you could just maybe a little bit… win. It’s such a lovely feeling to be recognised in the shortlist, but in one moment, you go from shortlisted to basically nothing. I’m cringing slightly with how dramatic that sounds, but hear me out.
As a blogger, you’ve basically got to start with the knowledge that you’re talking to yourself. Hardly anyone will read your blog for months, except your family and friends – and even then it’s only if they can be bothered or find the time. To be recognised for something you’ve privately worked away at for a long time, driven by only passion, faith and determination, is the dream. To be so close and then someone tell you “nope” is a little hard to take on in the space of about 30 seconds, especially for someone as competitive as me (I grew up in a family where if I came home from school happy about getting 80% in an exam, my mum would say “why didn’t you get 90%? 100%?”. Y’know, in a nice way…).
I would never be bitter or rain on the parade of Highly Commended Jess from The Travelista or winner, Katie from Stories My Suitcase Could Tell. They’re lovely people, like-minded travel bloggers and I’m happy for them. And obviously, if I was either of them, I’d be over the moon too. How could I be mad at that?!
So it’s nothing malicious against anyone else, or even that I thought I would win; all there was in this whole process before the night was shock, excitement and hope. Plus, I made it into Cosmo’s Amazing Outfits gallery, so there’s that at least…? ;)
I recently read a quote that the difference between people who make it and those who don’t are that those who make it never gave up. I’m a stubborn person, so I might as well use it for something worthwhile, right?
What matters to me above an award is that I’m proud of my blog and that it brings happiness and inspiration to others. So with that, I’m just going to keep blogging and keep improving.
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